For a few months, I’ve stumbled over words in a conversation and then mentally kicked myself for sounding dumb. What the heck was going on? I told myself that it must have been my time in Japan — I had forgotten how to English! However, little did I know that I was experiencing a lack of confidence.
I consider myself to be a fairly confident person: I’m confident that I’ll burn the quinoa when I meal prep on Sundays; I’m confident that I have the best walk in Miami; I’m confident that I will arrive 15-30 minutes late to any event; and I’m confident that you’ll either laugh or scoff at my examples of confidence. Nevertheless, when a personality assessment showed that my colorfulness, extroversion, and mischievousness actually harmed my ability to succeed, I was devastated. I was also informed that my youthful appearance and cheerful nature caused others to perceive me as “lacking depth and millennial-ish.” (What. THE. F*ck!)
In an effort to reign in the locura, I attempted to appear calm, introverted, and behaved, especially at work, and this began to affect my ability to communicate. I was buffering in order to devise the perfect response but it sounded unnatural, forced, and robotic.
Thankfully, this lack of confidence was súper short lived as I sought guidance by the most colorful Cuban-American female entrepreneur. She was my loca spirit animal, who took the time discuss her struggles with a larger-than-life personality. My takeaway from this discussion was that you have to do you (boo) because you will be awarded or faulted by it either way.
Everyone will have an option about who you are, who you aren’t, and who you should be. You have to be OK with who you are. The moment you have doubts, the vultures will swoop in.
I also read, “The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck,” and you should too! You can check out the TedTalk version here.
If valuing personal time instead of staying at work until 8:00 p.m. puts me in the millennial category, then be sure to check out my Instastory while you’re at work. If buying a Donald Trump cake on your birthday, knowing how much you hate him, makes me a little mischievous, then I solemnly swear I am up to no good. If my looks and happiness make me seem dumb, then know that…
“I can be smart when it’s important, but most don’t like it.” – Marilyn Monroe